real deal of addiction

i have been sober for 3 weeks.

i turned down two drinking session in a week. i thought i was getting serious about cutting down on alcohol. but still its not easy.

have you ever tried fighting towards the bad addiction that you're trying hard to get rid of? uhh.. it feels effin awful trust me.

i was on my bed yesterday night, trying to get some sleep. a while after that, i was no where near sleeping. then i put on my earphone listening to the songs from my blackberry.

guess what, it was David Guetta's Sexy Bitch followed by Club Can't Handle Me. ohmygod. the songs remind me of the partying, drinking and dancing craziness. i am missing all of those badly. i couldn't get the crazy pictures out of my head T___T

while the songs were still on, my body were basically curled up under the blanket like a drug addict trying to get rid of the addiction. yes its as ugly as what you're thinking.

oh what the hell pink. i dont think i can afford to stop drinkin and partyin while my body is still capable of doing so :/

life is just too short. i want back my life.